Season of my Heart

The weather is getting beautiful, spring break is close and the smell of summer is just around the corner.
So why do I feel like i've just been hit by a heavy snow storm?
I feel like i've fallen into a dark hole with no where to go except down.
I fear. I fear of failure, rejection, and being unloved. But in reality i don't care either way.
If i'm rejected; i don't care. If i'm unloved; i don't care. I want to be myself. If you like me
that way then GREAT. If you don't, that's really ONLY your problem. I could care less.
You got to love friends. Especially the ones who are negative a lot, talk behind your back, who are extremely rude & mean, cry about everything, and blame all their past on their present actions. Oh, how do i love it! it makes me extremely happy. Do you think i'm serious? ha! what do you think?

This snow storm started out as trickling rain growing to a snow storm with a quick switch of temperature in an instant.
I need to get away from all this drama. Yes, there is always drama. Even when there's not, that's drama itself. It is like a light switch; on one moment, off the other. And people just LOVE to keep flicking that light switch on . . . over and over and over again.

I can't wait for this break. I NEED it. Stress, depression and fear is coming out my throat. I need to let it go.
Hopefully, i'll come back with a sunshine glow of happiness. And maybe just maybe the season of my heart will be spring.