Reflecting 2008

The other day I thought to myself, "I've changed incredibly much this year."
One must wonder why.
I've gone through a lot. Sure, not as much as some people.
But still I had my doubts, my untrusting moments, and my hopeless thougts.
In this Past Year of 2008, I've witnessed death, birth, life, hardships, warfare, rebirth, growth, joy, happiness, and sadness.
All of those things and more can change a person more indefinitely than most would
think. For me, it did.

It made me realize how life is so short. No, shorter than short! The world wastes there
time soooo much on worrying about what people think, worrying about what's going on, and just plain WORRYING! People worry so much that they aren't living life.
When writers, or bloggers or your next door neighbor say, "Live Life to the Fullest", we take
that phrase for granted!
I'm sure there is a group of people who stake that claim all the time, but yet DON'T do it.
Why? What's Stopping You?

ATTN: Living Life to the Fullest is NOT:
- moping around waiting for someone else to put things back together
- worrying about completely nothing
- crying when no tears should be shed/crying over spilled milk
- complaining all the time
- expecting someone else to take the leap or jump first
- concentrating on the horrible/negative stuff ALL the fricken time
- wallowing in self-pity
- not getting OVER something that took place long ago
- wasting your time and money on ridiculous things
- expecting everyone to have zero flaws, imperfections, indifferences,
defects or weaknesses
- living without God. I've tried, and it doesn't work so well
- constantly wanting your way all the time. "My way or the highway"

....and the list could go on.

In this past year, i've learned more than just what living life meant but by embracing it and taking hold of that. There's a few things i've changed in my life... but mostly a few people have been either the inspiration or example and have seriously opened my eyes and made me discover things about life and myself.

First off, I've learned to be a little more open with people and express who i am. It's all or nothing..."whether you like me or not" kind of attitude. I learned that in college just from self realization, but also from Keith who is an amazing friend. If you haven't met him, you just got to!

Secondly, I've also learned to be more straight forward and honest, and that what i may say MAY not be stupid. I had a fear of sounding stupid or dumb or whatever. But I've learned that I shouldnt be afraid of expressing who i am and my thoughts. I definitely owe my boyfriend, Jack for teaching me that. He probably doesn't realize that but it's very true!

Thirdly, I've learned to not always concentrate on the negative stuff, But to stay positive even when things are heard. My mom's taught me that along with a great friend, Quentin.


I have so many more friends that Have taught me tons of stuff too!!! but these are the major things i've personally dealt with that have changed and encouraged me!

However, I'm not the same person as I was last year, I hope to change and grow this coming year of 2009!

Living to the Fullest has a Definite Meaning this Year and Years to Come!

Happy Holidays and Have an Amazing Year!