A Challenge into the Unknown

I tossed and turned last night; an idea settled in my stomach and my heart could not turn from it.
I wonder if it's something I just want to do or if it's something I should do.
I'm running to the unknown; no idea where it will lead me.

I feel like this for some reason is what I am suppose to do; atleast for this day- this time.

Not knowing what I will do when I get there; I'm nervous.
No, not afraid; but more unsettled, surrounded, and astounded.
Is this the plan God has for me?

Am I suppose to follow this insane yet comforting idea?
Is God telling me to go or is it just a part of me that wants to think I'm suppose to go?

Is this his challenge for me? or
is it a blind accusation?

I usually think I know what I want and what's best for me; but in reality I don't.

This feeling inside of me says go, but my stubborness for some reason says no.

Should I listen to the small voice inside?
Is this the challenge that I have been wanting to take?
or is this the challenge I need to take?


A journey, a trip, a challenge I have yet to take into the unknown?

Enough? -the pressure of life

Ever have the feeling in which life just seems to always drag you down; no matter what you do, what you say or who you believe in?
Ever wish the emptiness could be swept away?
Ever want to believe that you weren't meant for the life you are leading?
Ever think back to the times you felt happy and wonder what you did to deserve the unbreakable truth?
Ever hope that you could rewind the time and perhaps go to the past-reviewing and reliving those moments of glee?
...Sometimes i do....Other times i'm glad that i have traveled past those years...past those seconds of happiness, worrying, sadness in which has gotten me through much.
...But then i think; i'm finally becoming an adult- where all the real worrying comes into play.
for example; my financial future and present (bills, car, phone etc), my education, importance of relationships, and what I wanna do for myself and my life.
At this moment i am bound to the chain of stresses; i don't know how to reach beyond that.
Moving to indiana has given me a lot of respect for my family and loved ones and has made me realize that life is not an easy glide....it's more like a crazy twist with highs and lows; mountains and valleys; smiles and frowns....
All i can say is that i'm alive; my family is well and my friends are safe.
is that enough?

An Amazing Return

Today for the first time in awhile I don't feel like writing.
An odd thing; this I know.
I was thinking that I had no inspiration and nothing really new to say, but then It hit me.
Words do not come from inspiration nor does it come from our feelings, but more or less comes our heart and what we are really thinking.
Right now, I'm thinking of how I have changed in so many ways since yesterday, since last week, last month, last year...etc.
I'm thinking of my future and how it could be changed by one small move, by one small expression or act.
I'm figuring out that embracing life is the one and only way to live it.
I'm realizing that all the feelings kept inside us are ready to scream and be released through our passions and talents.
Today is an amazing return of who I am. A life not many can fathom.